Friday, July 6, 2012

Too Poor To Prep!

The Reckoner isn't into prepping as much as the Squawker. I am what could be called a WANT TO BE PREPPER. I believe there are major chances of total economic and other collapse looming over society. Even our scary weather, whether from would be rogues and their chemtrails if you believe that way or from "climate change" seems to be now bringing a monthly disaster to America. Some surely are old enough to remember when a thunderstorm was just a thunderstorm and didn't mean millions had the electrical grid collapse for weeks such as the East Coast is having happening now.

To be frank, I almost froze to death while on a long distance trip in a blizzard. Yes, it did get that bad, and my food amounted to some crackers I had with me for days. Thankfully a Andy Griffith like friendly sheriff rescued I and a friend from a stuck car but while we were given shelter in an falling down hotel, there was no heat. The days of being wrapped in blankets on the bed, as a trail of freezing tears will be ones to never be forgotten. I also know the me of today in poorer health never could survive another go-around.

Another time if not for a friend with an outdoor wood heater, that would have been the end, three days, seeing my breath before me, with an entire small town, with the power out including the hospital in the dead of winter after an ice storm. Freezing to death is not a pleasant outcome. These experiences told me that civilization has a thin veneer and stayed with me.

For years, I have read Backwoods Home magazine, like others have read Vogue and fashion magazines to dream of an unattainable self-reliant life. With poor health and low money, the walking cane and prescription drug set living in a small apartment without land aren't exactly able to follow what these magazines detail. The problem? Most everything COSTS MONEY, the tools, the canning jars, the special pots, and you need LAND to pull it off. What if you have none of it? The Reckoner and I lack all of the above, included needed skills.

I feel a sense of guilt in not having been able to prepare. I pray that God will look out for me and leave it that. However all these years, I have discussed with the Reckoner, switching to another way of life, but we were forced even out of our more remote small town from economic forces. With every month a marathon even to obtain food and the basics of living, what extra is there to prepare for societal collapse outside of some solar flashlights, extra meds and a few silver coins? Perhaps that was a bad decision, but when you can't pay rent or buy food, who wants to live in someone's basement? I've had enough homeless and other friends to know that is a situation not always easily rectified.

When I watch the Hutterites on TV, I feel ENVIOUS.  They have community, food they grow and make themselves, and skills to survive. They have others around to help them. The Amish share these things too though they are not allowed electricity and modern tools like the Hutterites who live more communally--every family in a private home but with shared meals and resources. I wonder if shows like this and ones on the Amish are growing so popular now, because people see a way of life that was lost. Not only are we enslaved to debt, working as worker bees, going nowhere, we have lost everything that has made life matter, community, religious connections, close access to our family, ties to the land and more. The only time I get to visit with my family is on a social website, some of whom I have not seen in 7-8 years. Somehow photos and written lines isn't doing it anymore, but very few seem to understand the loss I speak of. One asks what is it all for just to work and enjoy nothing else?  For those who are disabled, isolation seems to be a normative price in this society.  If healthy I would consider what of these lifestyles and one can tell even modern preppers in their own way aspire to it. I have realized that I am not happy in "modern life", but with poor health feel somehow 'stuck" in being able to change it. If anyone has any ideas about that write me here.

Suburban upper middle class life in my case, prepared me for nothing. I even had to learn to live as a poor person in the beginning because I simply did not know how. When your parents never lacked for groceries, finding alternative sources of food, does require knowledge, such as how to approach a food pantry. Today that is the worse part of being poor, the feeling of being on the abyss, knowing it wouldn't take much to knock the whole jerry-built contraption over. Of course here, prayer helps, but you wonder about the stress, of what modern life has done to us. Out of touch with everything but at the same time bombarded with fear, endless disasters and more. The preppers even if some think they are crazy, and many do, are the people preparing ahead of time, sniffing the wind of a culture that even now speaks of it's own collapse. What is that Zombie Apocalypse meme about? What do you all think of a country now where everyone is so worried honestly seeing the rising signs of decline with their eyes open, that so many people desire to have entire bunkers full of food and survival supplies? This is not a sign of a healthy cohesive society but one that is coming apart at the seams with people knowing it is!! Whatever your beliefs, even if you think these prepping people are 'crazy', and I don't, there is a reason so many Americans feel the need to do this now. 

That said, prepping does cost money.

Look at this guy, he is probably an average prepper, how many thousands of dollars did this prepping cost? How many folks would have this guy's extreme mechanical skills? He has the land, the resources and much more to pull off the prepping self- reliant life style

He admits at the beginning of the video, that he spent $6-7,000 dollars for the food stores. What of the families who do not have this type of extra expendable income? I do believe if someone feels so led, they should prepare as much as they are able. We are in the days now, where having a few extra days of food around is not a bad idea, but then with so many stuck in the week to week lifestyle, barely able to even keep the needed daily groceries in the house, it is a serious problem.

I don't have the answers for this one, it is just something I've been mulling over. There are different websites out there that do give advice.

120 Powerful Pieces Of Advice For Preppers

How to Start Preparing for Hard Times on a Very Modest Budget:Part One

I guess at the end of the day, a person can just do what they can, if you are poor enough everyday is a "survival run".--The Squawker


  1. Yeah, I know. I'm also in this position, having become more or less homeless. I had a small farm, I gardened, canned, dehydrated, had livestock. Now I have no place to work or store these things. At almost 60, I'll probably never have a job again that pays more than $8 an hour. Invisible.

  2. I am sorry that happened to you, I will pray for you. Yes that is especially terrible to lose a farm and you had the skillsets to prepare and provide for yourself but I know many people are losing their farms and land. Storage when it comes to prepping is imperative. I watched Doomsday Prepper and noticed the ones they showed had plenty of extra space to store their stored goods. No one bedroom apartments with 500 square feet or less in that world. I realize things are far harder on older people who have lost jobs and I believe there is real job discrimination out there happening to the over 45 set. Thanks for sharing. Yes they have rendered so many invisible.

  3. The above was written by The Squawker...

  4. Hello, optimist, so sorry to hear about what happened to you -- big or small, farmers seem to be going the way of the passenger pigeon! I know a lot of people in your age bracket who are having an equally hard time in this so-called job market, to which fewer and fewer seem to have access...keep in touch and let us know how you're doing. On this blog, you're not invisible. --The Reckoner

  5. Oh, I also wanted to say, have you ever consider living in an Intentional Community? This might be a really good fit for you. I've been looking into them for several years. Start here:, and look closely at places like Dancing Rabbit in Missouri, Shannon Farm in VA, and well, there are hundreds of them to choose from. I'd be interested to know what you think!

    I 'enjoy' reading you blog, well, you know, as much as one can enjoy reading about stuff that makes you really angry, right? I have one similar, and it was meant to be about my daily life below the poverty line, but it is depressing to put it into words most of the time. I should get back to documenting that.

  6. Yes, the Sqauwker and I have discussed this topic from time to time -- we seem to split on whether we want countless brothers and sisters! But you can ask the Squawker what you think about that one, and we'll definitely check out that link.

    I'm glad that you enjoy our writings, especially when you consider that we're doing something downright unappealing -- what, get people to think about hardcore poilitics? Shock, horror, Heaven forbid!

    In that context, 'enjoyment' is indeed a relative term, all means...get back to documenting your struggles! By doing so, you give yourself a voice that otherwise doesn't exist to the TV talking heads who insist that prosperity is just around the corner...question is, which corner? --The Reckoner

  7. Hi, I checked out your blog, I am gl-oing to link to it here. I am glad you are discussing some of these things happening as well. Yeah understand what you mean by reading things that are not such a "happy" topic but it is definitely reality. I have been interested in the IC/cohousing] but being disabled for now it has remained just a thought. Even the cohousing sadly seems to be available just for the upper middle class echelons. Thanks for your suggestions. Yes, please get back to documenting your struggles. :)-_The Squawker